FIRST OF ALL

First Of All, i write this story to reveal myself to my journey

What the worst moment that u ever face in your life?
What kind of life that you living?
What phase that you have passed by?
How many kind of mistake that you ever made?
What do you want from life?

This is just second month of this year, and i have already face very difficult moment and then thats question feels like pushing me every time..

i really understand what really people passed for their strugling, healing for something, and recovery
but im not there, im lost, but im still in love, i pray..
and after it someone come to her life properly, make sure herself.. and after that i know what quality of woman you are

you are so amazing, i really proud of you
im glad that someone healing and want to make you happy, even you still dont have feeling
but i know cz im a man.. that feeling will come and strong
and im not fine here, i still want to fix us, want to refight, but at least trying to understand
your heart has broke by me, you dissapoint. and me with all of my reason that im not really think that you are not obstacle for me

i know you forgive me, and i know you dont know to what will happen next
but u have made your decision
huhu